Slept at 4am last night after watching France being trashed 4-1 by Holland. I've always liked
Dutch footie but i've also admired French footie and was quite astounded by the 4-1 result. Oh well, complacency does a lot fo things to you.....so i guess domenech has to do something about it , else he will be getting the boot from the French football bigshots anytime soon. Oh well, time to focus on my heroes ; Spain =D........Spain VS Sweden.....that should be easy....come on! The Torres and Villa duo cant go wrong.....or at least i hope not.......

So woke up at 11am, had my bath.....went out for lunch with my galfrens. Then we were at Berjaya Megamall, shopping, checking movie tickets, shopping, and shopping.....That's what women do best....A local Sex and The City episode......As we were exiting the mall, i realized that i misplaced the parking tix, so had to go all the way to the groundfloor, pay the fine, get a new ticket and exit the lot. Then we got tickets for Kungfu Panda at 10pm at Teruntum and right now im updating this blog as i wait to leave the house for the movie........*taking a deep breath*....sometimes your flow of thoughts feels like speaking a long sentence without pausing........so time to take a deep breath ;).......

So, do i want to say anything about the Blue Saturday? Indeed, despite a filled time table today, i was still thinking about that something almost every 30mins. I guess thats why they say a man can be detached from emotions and just think with his mind and leave the external factors such as memory out but a woman thinks = emotion+memory+current factors.......So it is difficult to think without remembering something even if you dont want to remember it.

And he isnt making it easier by ignoring me. Maybe he feels guilty, maybe he doesnt want me to remember the fact that i like him. Like hell no, i will and cannot forget it but if he was his usual self, he will make me not think about it, as ill at least have my old friend back. Him trying not to speak to me too much in front of our others, or being terse, or not being as friendly with me as before, or lookign down at the floor and walking past me , completely ignoring me, isnt making me feel any better......In fact, it is torturing, annoying and hurting me soooo much, i think i am being a menace to myself when i see him. I look at him blankly but i inside, i am shouting at him, "Talk to me like you did before, for godsakes...i am not going to fall dead at your feet.....i take a no......i just spoke my mind because i thought you cared enough to understand me.....if i knew you were going to run away or ignore me ( even if you are doing it for me), i would have never told you in the 1st place.....but i would have secretly fancied you all the way.....which would have hurt worst..."

Anyway, i hope things go back to what they were before.....the friendship, the laughter, the fun times.....i can learn to love a friend the same way.......

Time to go watch a movie...and to anyone who reads this entry, dont forget to watch Spain in action at 112pm tonight......if you support Spain, you support me and Fernando Torres! :P