Blue Saturday.......

So, i finally told him that i liked him. His reaction? Can't because he has a gf. I never knew he had a gf, but then again he is personal about his life and i certainly respected him enough to not ask any of his mates about his personal life. If i was mean, i could have asked, so what about the extra attention that i got? But then i just told myself, maybe he just felt good around me, which i did too around him. Also, i wasnt about to lose a friend who makes me feel good and happy around him. I liked the person, i liked who i was when i was around him. And i thought..........being a good friend that he is, if there wasnt such feelings on his part, we will continue being what we were.......

BUT....that is not exactly what happened......not sure if he was shocked or what, but what i know is that he said it was a mistake for me to confess because it is unconventional for the female to confess to the male. I wanted to scream out loud : "Times have changed.......Someone needs to tell someone to take it to the next level.....does it matter who???.....and this is my 1st time confessing to a guy...." But i didnt..........

He has been acting a bit strange since then......sounding less nice.....which hurts badly because i didnt expect it to be this way.....i am the one who confessed, i am the one who should be acting weird, and he is a guy, for godsakes.......but oh well shit happens.......and i hope he goes back to being himself.......i dont want to lose a friend over this........

Dictionary of the words and actions of the "Male Species"

I want to say : "I think i like you...."

I need to know what he'll say...........

Men are so difficult to predict and interpret........Words....Actions.....Body Language........

Mars VS Venus.........Male VS Females....the language is so different......It's like Chinese VS Tamil...........

Should i tell him? Should i ask him? For once, i feel like this is right.......OR is it?????

Can someone help me interpret him?

Theme song for this month** :-)

Andra and The Backbone Lirik - Sempurna
Kau begitu sempurna

Dimataku kau begitu indah

kau membuat diriku akan slalu memujimu
Disetiap langkahku

Kukan slalu memikirkan dirimu

Tak bisa kubayangkan hidupku tanpa cintamu


*Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku

Takkan mampu menghadapi semua

Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa


Reff:

Kau adalah darahku

Kau adalah jantungku

Kau adalah hidupku

Lengkapi diriku

Oh sayangku, kau begitu

Sempurna.. Sempurna..


Kau genggam tanganku

Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh

Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku


My Current Thoughts

I was looking far beyond the mountains, looking for that something that brought a smile to my face, that made me feel good and i saw it. But i only saw it, i wasn't able to reach it and i probably will never be able to touch it. But suddenly , the sun shone very brightly illuminating EVERYTHING around me and i saw it again.......and this time it was much much closer.....But whether i can still reach it and touch it remains a question but i am certainly closer. :-)



Hint : White or any other color ? - White :-) :-) :-)