So the confusion has left me and clarity has found me. But now that i have defined who you are, you have stepped back...... :( .....what you will be is a good , good friend. Someone who i can trust and fall back for support. Hopefully, you will be there when i need you. Although, i will not be able to completely erase my romantic feelings for you, but i know i will be walking along a neverending path. aimless. It is better for me to think of you, this way, because at least, ill have you forever with me as a FRIEND. You probably dont even know what i am talkign about if i was to tell you, but it's ok, they always say that men are clueless when it comes to sensing a woman's feelings. And a woman is always complicated as she can feel too many feelings at once.
On a happier note, today is Sunday!!!!!!!...futsal practice at 10, then lepaking with my galfriends....looking forward to a day filled with laughter and fun. We have a tournament tomorrow, and we are kind of nervous about it. Wel, we are amateurs at futsal and we will probably be playing a bit haywire. But i look forward to it, as this is the beginning building a strong futsal team. Hoping to compete next year and ace-ing it. ;)
Happy Weekend !
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
What is this ******* called?
Confused to the point of wanting to knock my head on the wall to clear things up. Hahahahah....if only it was that easy.
*Pretending that i am writing this to him*
You call me, talk to me for 45 minutes and then you tell me that you find this other girl great? What is wrong with you? That is the worst thing to say as i feel like slamming down the phone and never picking it uup again.. Is it that you dont sense that i am starting to grow some feelings for you? Is it that you are dumb? It is not that i intend to like you or like you despite knowing that you are unattainable ( you know why) but i cant help liking you due to the situation and my vulnerability as a woman. Believe me, only i know how much i tried hating you and looking at you in a different way......Right now, i cant do it until i get some justification from you......to clear my head........as in am i liking you for the right reason or am i liking you while you are just thinking of me as a very good friend?...i can't make up my mind
I am utterly confused.....
*Pretending that i am writing this to him*
You call me, talk to me for 45 minutes and then you tell me that you find this other girl great? What is wrong with you? That is the worst thing to say as i feel like slamming down the phone and never picking it uup again.. Is it that you dont sense that i am starting to grow some feelings for you? Is it that you are dumb? It is not that i intend to like you or like you despite knowing that you are unattainable ( you know why) but i cant help liking you due to the situation and my vulnerability as a woman. Believe me, only i know how much i tried hating you and looking at you in a different way......Right now, i cant do it until i get some justification from you......to clear my head........as in am i liking you for the right reason or am i liking you while you are just thinking of me as a very good friend?...i can't make up my mind
I am utterly confused.....
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Calling for the weather man again!
Killing me softly with his words...killing me softly with his song....
Why are you doing this to me? Damn, am i confused....i am growing to like you more and more by the minute. But yet im confused of what i should be feeling for you. And of what you think of me?
Are we just good friends? Are we more than that? Do you have something that you are hiding?. I can shout out from the rooftop and say that you never fail to bring a smile to my face and you lift me up so high from misery.
What are your intentions? Please be truthful with me. Ill accept anything that is honest right now as im confused. Although i would like to hear what i want to hear, but honesty is a gold coin at this moment.
You words, your voice, your compassion and your interest in me tells me that i can't just be a friend?. Maybe a real good friend???? Come what may, i know i'll never be able to get you and you know why....I just want you to know that if i had the chance i would have.....but the time has passed , i guess???
Why are you doing this to me? Damn, am i confused....i am growing to like you more and more by the minute. But yet im confused of what i should be feeling for you. And of what you think of me?
Are we just good friends? Are we more than that? Do you have something that you are hiding?. I can shout out from the rooftop and say that you never fail to bring a smile to my face and you lift me up so high from misery.
What are your intentions? Please be truthful with me. Ill accept anything that is honest right now as im confused. Although i would like to hear what i want to hear, but honesty is a gold coin at this moment.
You words, your voice, your compassion and your interest in me tells me that i can't just be a friend?. Maybe a real good friend???? Come what may, i know i'll never be able to get you and you know why....I just want you to know that if i had the chance i would have.....but the time has passed , i guess???
Monday, January 21, 2008
The weather man or weather woman rather came!
So regarding the previous entry, the weather woman came and helped clear the air. Thanx Rami! ;) She advised me on the "simbiosis" relationship. So no matter, if he might be using me, which i hope he is not, i am still gaining something from it. So it is a win win situation. :)
Matters of the heart sometimes are confusing but at times, you just have to step out of it and analyze the situation and think, feelings of compassion and care are not ALWAYS the main thing. It is also about doing the right thing, and the right thing must be something that brings some benefit.
Therefore, although i would have preferred it to be an honest and sincere thing, i guess i have to see it in a way that brings benefits to both parties and if it is bound to make both happy, then why not?
Life is a long road home. Anything can happen anytime. Live a detached life. A life with no strings attached and therefore you will only feel the gravity pull and nothing else that compells you to sway anywhere else but towards the gravity.
Matters of the heart sometimes are confusing but at times, you just have to step out of it and analyze the situation and think, feelings of compassion and care are not ALWAYS the main thing. It is also about doing the right thing, and the right thing must be something that brings some benefit.
Therefore, although i would have preferred it to be an honest and sincere thing, i guess i have to see it in a way that brings benefits to both parties and if it is bound to make both happy, then why not?
Life is a long road home. Anything can happen anytime. Live a detached life. A life with no strings attached and therefore you will only feel the gravity pull and nothing else that compells you to sway anywhere else but towards the gravity.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Coloured or Black & White? *This lass is Confused*
Intentions…….good or bad……change the way you look at something. A good intention can change a black and white film to a coloured one while a bad intention will do the opposite.
When you can’t figure out a person’s intention, you can’t bring yourself to love them or care for them as you would like to. You become confused; you become wary of your every step and his or her every step.
What do you do? Do you continue being wary and minding your every step or do you let it go and trust your instinct and the love or care you have for that person?
You are confusing me……im confused of your intentions……im confused if you really care or if you are just acting along…...im confused of my feelings for you…...im confused with your actions and reactions towards me……im just confused.
Someone help…I need to clear my head. There is a whirlwind inside, the rain and storm are coming and going with the sun making its occasional appearance. Calling for the weatherman!!!!!
When you can’t figure out a person’s intention, you can’t bring yourself to love them or care for them as you would like to. You become confused; you become wary of your every step and his or her every step.
What do you do? Do you continue being wary and minding your every step or do you let it go and trust your instinct and the love or care you have for that person?
You are confusing me……im confused of your intentions……im confused if you really care or if you are just acting along…...im confused of my feelings for you…...im confused with your actions and reactions towards me……im just confused.
Someone help…I need to clear my head. There is a whirlwind inside, the rain and storm are coming and going with the sun making its occasional appearance. Calling for the weatherman!!!!!
Thursday, January 3, 2008
What stands between black and white?...It's a grey area
Is being single all that bad? Are we singletons suppose to feel bad about not having a partner in life? Does that give people the right to assume that we are not interested in being married, we are too caught up with work, we are confused with our sexuality...etc. These are only some of the comments ive heard people make about the singletons. Why?
Why is it a sin to not have a life partner or a fiance? Why?
I personally havent found the right person. Better still, all the right people ive met are always taken by another desperate female not wanting to be single because it is oh so bad to be single. Ok no, it's not fair for me to make that statement but really...
Everyone has requirements; tall, thin, fat fit, slim, fair, dark, etc. It is perfectly ok to find a partner who meets these requirements. I mean of course don't intend on finding one who meets 10/10 of these requirements but 5/10 is legal.
Rather i think it is commendable tha some of us singletons actually would wait till we get the right one to be made as a life partner, because it shows the importance we place on the marriage institution. It's not just settling for the sake of settling.
So, long live the singletons, go find for that guy/gal that is meant for you. Dont be disheartened by what people say. marriage is alife long commitment. You don't want to be an older man pining for a young girl's attention or an older woman looking for the energy of a younger man. So, go find the best!.
Why is it a sin to not have a life partner or a fiance? Why?
I personally havent found the right person. Better still, all the right people ive met are always taken by another desperate female not wanting to be single because it is oh so bad to be single. Ok no, it's not fair for me to make that statement but really...
Everyone has requirements; tall, thin, fat fit, slim, fair, dark, etc. It is perfectly ok to find a partner who meets these requirements. I mean of course don't intend on finding one who meets 10/10 of these requirements but 5/10 is legal.
Rather i think it is commendable tha some of us singletons actually would wait till we get the right one to be made as a life partner, because it shows the importance we place on the marriage institution. It's not just settling for the sake of settling.
So, long live the singletons, go find for that guy/gal that is meant for you. Dont be disheartened by what people say. marriage is alife long commitment. You don't want to be an older man pining for a young girl's attention or an older woman looking for the energy of a younger man. So, go find the best!.
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