What is this ******* called?

Confused to the point of wanting to knock my head on the wall to clear things up. Hahahahah....if only it was that easy.

*Pretending that i am writing this to him*

You call me, talk to me for 45 minutes and then you tell me that you find this other girl great? What is wrong with you? That is the worst thing to say as i feel like slamming down the phone and never picking it uup again.. Is it that you dont sense that i am starting to grow some feelings for you? Is it that you are dumb? It is not that i intend to like you or like you despite knowing that you are unattainable ( you know why) but i cant help liking you due to the situation and my vulnerability as a woman. Believe me, only i know how much i tried hating you and looking at you in a different way......Right now, i cant do it until i get some justification from you......to clear my head........as in am i liking you for the right reason or am i liking you while you are just thinking of me as a very good friend?...i can't make up my mind

I am utterly confused.....