Forced into something i am unsure of.....

If you know an indian muslim family well, you will definitely know that marriage is a topic that will definitely be brought up when you pass 23, especially if you are a girl. Lately , my dearest madre' has been getting on my back about this matter. Her exact words, "I dont care if you bring any guy, whatever color as long as i know you have someone, then i wont bother you. But now, that you don't have anyone, it is my duty to make sure you meet guys so that you get married by 26." Crash Boom Bang!!!!!!

Have you ever heard that it is a sin to not have a boyfriend??? Well, now you have. With things going pretty ok at work, i am not sure if marriage at 25 will be a good idea especially since all the guys that she seems to be nominating are those settled in KL and not coming from a family that is willing to have a daughter-in-law who travels back and forth fr kuantan to kl. Crash Boom Bang!!!!!

Yes! Crash Boom Bang....it really is. Been having arguments with her about this. MyStand ? : Give me two more years or so, till im stable and i shall do whatever you want me to do OR bring me a guy who is willing to be a weekend husband or let me be a weekend wife. Then, i guess i can do marriage at 25. Else, leave me alone for 2 more years or so, and then we shall talk marriage.

At this point, i really wish i could find a guy working in Petronas, in Kuantan or Kertih , so that distance wont be a problem. SIGH!!!!! Unfortunately, there aren't many available guys that i am romantically inclined to and the few that i am, are all taken. :( So what can Shahreen do?.....NOTHING!!!!!

Aaaggghhhh. Why does life have to be difficult? When you finally know what you want in life, it gets more difficult.....ive been a dreamer all my life....ambitious to make it to the top.....I was at the top when i was in school, a pretty ok student, a head prefect, president of the science club, played sports etc. When i was in uni, i was involved in some stuff, but not that much, but i liek to think that i never gave up no matter what i did and how difficult it was. When i graduated, i told myself, that when i start working, i will make it to the top eventually. And of course to make sure that i am married and have kids (I love kids!!!!) and balance my life between family and work. And that is my goal. Call me a dreamer or over ambitious but i would like to give it a try. Ive been known to be a highly motivated person when i really want something bad. When i first joined, i become demotivated after a few months due to me not fitting in at work and thinking that too much politics and nepotism will not get me to the top. But thanx to a few people, they made me realize that i could do it and that i should strive for it.( Not to mention the great people around me now who make each day at work a GOOD day! :) )Which made me realize that , if i wanted the success that ive been dreaming of since childhood, i will have to start now. And that is exactly what ive been doing. And Alhamdulillah, i think things are going pretty ok now.

But skaranglah, my dearest mum has to bring this up....aaaghhh....what am i to do???? Any suggestions???

Did someone say holiday???

Errr....yes, someone did say holiday. I am going on a "forced holiday" tomorrow ie today at 10am in the morning. To Bangkok. Worst of all is , i really dont mind not going due to the amount of work i have left stranded at office and plus the fact that'll ill be missing my first CI. :(.....Plus these days, not going to office even a day makes me miss it, most probably due to the fantastic and amazing people around me. They make me smile everyday! :)

Today was a mad rush. And as expected, between finishing my work and getting to the bus station at 8pm to get on the bus to kl, i missed the bus by 4 mins and the inconsiderate driver left. So i had to stick around another 1 hr to wait get on the next bus. So, i spent my time, smsing my close friends who i havent wished, valentines wishes. And wondering about a few others.....someone told me today this: "my marriage is like driving a car in kl". And i asked myself, yes what do you do when the road that you have chosen has bad traffic and it seems like it might take a whole day to reach a destination which is just 5 minutes away. Have always asked myself this question coz I am an erratic Gemini and many have told me that my ever changing mind and desires could make my life very "interesting". When they tell me this, i always think of what i would do, if i was in this situation because it is quite difficult to keep me interested. I was also told that i needed to find a Libra who can keep me grounded and interested. I have to say that ive met very few Libras but its truly amazing what they can do to a Gemini. It is not easy to convince a Gemini, i can tell you that, and if person can do that, then they are "it" :). Its not like i swear by horoscope but there is some truth in it. Anyway, coming back to the earlier question, Do you try to get out of that road and get to another road which will take you there in 5 minutes, not knowing whether you will be forced to face other obstacles on that road....or will you just turn the volume up and try to enjoy the 24 hrs ride to the 5 mins destination? Difficult eh? Ive given quite some thought to this and i have to say that, there isnt a right and wrong decision. If you are not going to be happy during the 24 hours ride, and you could possibly get to your destination in 5 mins using a different route, then why the hell are you still on the same road? At the same time, what happens if you get on the 5 mins road and in the last 2 minutes, you face a traffic which will take you another 24hrs to reach that same destination?....

I think ill die not knowing what the other roads can offer me, so 70% chance ill be switching roads.....its an individual's decision. No right or wrong......

With that, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY to you!


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